Friday, February 26, 2010

Embracing Change

I don't embrace change well, in case you didn't know that about me.

Being content with the way things are, however unorganized or out of place, I tend to just go with the flow and try not to stir the pot too much.

However, I have a baby coming, and this time, CHANGE is inevitable.

The first changes we are experiencing in our house are the changing of rooms, making room for baby. After living this way with just two people for SO long, you really come to realize how much stuff you accumulate and how much you hold onto, however unnecessary. The things that are taking up space in my home and in my life, are sometimes hard to say goodbye to, but I know in my heart they must be done. In order to bring more in, a purging, so to speak, must take place. It's not that I'm attached to the "stuff", I mean I'm not a hoarder or anything, but like I said I just don't like to change things all that much.

However, I'm starting to realize more and more that I like this change. My husband is someone who embraces change pretty well. I remember many times throughout our apartment living he would get a wild hair on his head and just change up the layout of the living room or bedroom. After I saw the change, I liked it, but I was always reluctant at first. (Sorry honey)

These days, we are changing our old bedroom to the new bedroom and emptying out the baby's room, for what's to come. We are starting to think about and ponder our lifestyle changes and wondering how to make all the necessary adjustments for this new person in our lives.

I figure the more I start to embrace the little changes, the easier it will be for me to embrace the bigger ones. Because I can imagine as this girl grows up, there are only going to be bigger changes taking place in her life AND ours, internal and external struggles with which to cope and less time to worry about them than I ever deemed imaginable.

It's all going to be fine though.

I never wanted this change more than any I've ever had before.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Checking in!

So, it's Wednesday and what a crazy week we've had so far! With Earthquakes and Snowstorms, is it just me or does it feel like the world is just one chaotic mess sometimes?! I didn't feel the earthquake last night, although some people at work were talking about it.
I'm surprised I didn't though, because I woke up at least 3-4 times last night, tossing and turning and waking in and out of bad dreams. It was not pleasant.

Well, today I had another appointment and I am currently 23.5 weeks along. Can I just say how much I'm loving being pregnant so far? What took me so long to do this? I'm starting to feel more movement these days which is great. I can't wait until Matt is able to feel the baby kick too. I feel her a lot after I eat or shift around.
This past weekend we registered at Babies R Us and now I think we are about done. I have a good idea of what we're going to buy and how the baby's room will look.
I have been hesitant to share much about my idea's for the nursery, but I don't mean for it to be a secret. I just wanted to be POSITIVE that's what I wanted. Things are starting to fall into place now so I feel comfortable sharing the details.
We are doing a music-themed nursery, which, if you know me and you know Matt, makes total sense. He and I have been going to concerts and collecting music since we were probably in the single digits and can't wait to share this part of ourselves with the little one. I know where I get my love of music too, from my parents. One of my earliest memories is of listening to records with my Dad, putting on those big jumbo headphones and getting lost in a Led Zeppelin, Elton John, Heart or Pat Benetar record. Those are very vivid memories for me and I want to instill the love and passion for music in my children that I have. Matt and I have collected and framed a lot of music posters over the years and those will be hung on the walls. I also just purchased a wall hanging from Etsy that includes French nursery rhymes so we'll be hanging that up as well. We have a few other ideas here and there that may or may not work, but the main idea is for our daughter to have music surrounding her and in life from day one. I can't wait to get to work!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Birthday Wishes

I'm sure we were all told as children that it's bad luck to tell your birthday wishes when you blow out your candles.
I'm not a kid anymore, and I'm not afraid. I want to share this time.

This year I wish:

1. For all my friends who are still looking for jobs or struggling with unemployment to find their dream job this year and for all their struggles to end.
2. For the health of all my friends and family, may we all continue to live in peace.
3. For my husband and me as we begin this journey of parenthood, may God guide us and lead us along the way and give us strength in the difficult times, and may we be the best parents to that little girl and shower her with all the love she deserves.
4. For a smooth transition and the courage to move back into my duties in my career as I know leaving her will be so so hard. I don't want to think about that part right now. :)
5. For the people I have lost touch with to know that I miss them and love them very much and if I could hold you all near much more often, I would. And for those who have lost touch with me to know that I am always here with open arms.

May I always know how blessed I am and never forget it for one single second.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010


Every week, there is a little poem or inscription at the end of my weekly pregnancy emails from Mothering Magazine. I thought I'd share this week's edition. It is hard for me not to be moved to tears each time I receive these:

This baby moves inside me now
Sending messages at night-
Morse code
About life on the inside:
It is dark
But warm and quiet
With only muffled echoes softly pleading,
Wake up, little one.
I want to know you're in there,
Happy and safe.
Answers come again-
A sudden flutter-
Secret lyrics of song with no rhythm.
Played with hands and feet.

Someday I will hear the song again-
A high-pitched, quick and breathy humming.
I will teach her that she's been singing that old song forever,
And reach out for little splayed hands
That have long since held my heart.

By Yvette Benavides

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Moving right along...

Well, here we are, into February already. Can you believe it?!

In two days it will be my 33rd birthday and I can't believe THAT either!

Things are going pretty good in my world right now, can't really complain. I had an amazing weekend spent with family, friends and my dear husband. Over the weekend, I was treated to dinner and lunch on two separate occasions, saw 2 shows and got to see the new (well, I guess it's not so new anymore) Modern Wing at the Art Institute yesterday. All in all, I'd say it was a pretty action-packed but incredibly fun weekend.

This weekend I hope to do more registering and getting a better grip on what we need for the baby. I was blessed with a HUGE box of baby clothes/shoes/socks from my dear friend Stephanie ( and had so much fun looking through everything yesterday and imagining my daughter wearing her daughter's hand-me-downs. It's bittersweet for me because Steph and I have been friends since we were literally 5 years old and to think my little girl and hers will have worn the same clothes just melts my heart. Especially considering all the clothes & shoe swapping she and I have done over the years!!! Thanks Steph-you are so amazing.

As for what else we need, I am a bit overwhelmed by all that goes into getting a baby's room ready-but I think that once we have the room cleared out for what stays and what goes, I'll be able to determine how much we really need. I was debating the idea of a co-sleeper next to my bed for when baby needs to nurse at night, but I'm not sure it's worth getting since we won't need it for very long. But I did read somewhere that it makes the baby transition better from your womb to the outside world when you keep them confined to a smaller space vs. a massive crib from the get-go. Another item we are toying with is the changing table. I would love to get a changing table/dresser combo that serves two purposes, but have not come across many that are very reasonably priced. Real estate is not going to be easy to come by in our nursery so we'll have to cut corners somewhere. I also think I really want a rocking chair for the room, but after the kids grow up and are older, what am I going to do with a rocker? Sell it I suppose.
I know we need to search more diligently on Craigslist but every time I look I don't see anything I like....sigh.
Welp, not much else is new and exciting in my life. Just thought I'd post an update since it had been awhile. I need to start incorporating pictures into my posts soon so maybe once we get the baby's room done I will have more visual accompaniments to my posts. Until then, enjoy your week everyone!!